Monday, July 7, 2008

Getting back into the swing of things....

DISNEY WAS A BLAST!!! It was hot and crowded but it was awesome! The longest line we stood in was about 20-30 minutes. We had lots of character dinners/breakfasts...that was really fun. It was a great family trip...and the kids survived their first flight!! :~)

Did I mention the food was AWESOME...we didn't have a bad meal. Unfortunately, it wasn't lean and mean. Several of the meals came to the table on platters...with unlimited refills. I did eat the veggies every meal...but I did eat the awful calorie laden crap too! Like I said though, every meal was excellent (except last day at downtown Disney...but it was just ok meal).

After getting back, ummmm Sunday before last...I had to work...then came the youngest child's birthday...

With all that said, it has been really difficult to get back to where I need to be mentally. I gained of course...according to my wonderful scale that I have a love/hate relationship with...7 it's at 6 wonderful pounds. I know I ate bad but I also walked my butt off and sweated practically the whole freaking time! I am not going to dwell on it because I had an awesome time and I don't want to take away from the trip...because we loved it. So, I need to get back to blogging...I really need the support...I need to get back to my Couch to 5K...and I definately need to eat right and drink my water!!!! Commitment...that is my plan!Thanks to everyone that has left messages...that is what really keeps me going. Like I said in my last post...I did read my blog sites...just didn't post. Then when I got home...I got busy and in a if you ignore it you don't have to face it...well I am facing it head on!!! I did not start this journey to gain weight back. I need to remember how miserable I was when I was my heaviest last year!!

I hope everyone is doing well and having a great week!!! I know I can do this!!!! :~P

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Weekend Rant...

Just a quick update...I work crazy nights this week and next to go on vacation!! Yay vacation...Disney here we come!! I am really looking forward to 11 days off work....sometimes I think my body really needs "normal people" hours every once in a while. Working nights, I always feel like I am tired!! :~P

Okay...I jumped on the scale this morning after work and it actually said 164...OMG...I am not gonna jump up and down yet...but down is the direction I want to be heading!!!! What was my goal...150's before Disney...hell-to-the-yeah!!

As far as points...I used all my WP a couple of days ago...honestly I've been working so I don't remember when...but I have stayed on target with my daily points every day!!!

Have a of the weekend...and Happy Father's Day to all of you men out in the blogoshere!!

Monday, June 9, 2008

Still OP...

As I sit here saying I am still on track...I just had 3 oreos and a glass of milk...that is why I like WW. I know I will NEVER give up sweets...but in moderation I know I can still have them if I have the points. I did have the points and yes it was 6 points for that...but it was good!!! I still have 8 points remaining for the day...I really want a salad for I will probably fix one when I get to work and bring my dressing!

I haven't done any scheduled exercise...but I did take the stairs all night at work Friday and Saturday...which I could really feel!!! I don't even remember yesterday because I decided since I worked Fri and Sunday...then work again Monday...that I wouldn't go to sleep yesterday!!! HAHA...I am not as young as I once was...and by 10pm last night I felt like I was drunk....not a good idea!! Needless to say, I won't be doing that again. :~P We live and learn.

As far as the scale is concerned...all that shitty eating last week...I went from 165 back up to 170...but now am back down to 166 as of this morning!!! Yay me!!! Now I know I didn't actually gain 5 pounds and lose 5 pounds in one week...I also was not drinking my water...and TOM was last week!!! So...I am still on track and will be!

I just had to buy some shorts for our Disney trip and I have been waiting and waiting...just thinking...that I could buy a size smaller...but I didn't. Oh well...see what screw ups do.

Well...I am off to take a nap since I get to work tonight!!! Of course it is suppose to be a really busy night...because summer is our busiest. :~PI hope everyone has a great day and drink lots of H2O!!!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

On a Mission Again...

Thanks to everyone for their great support...I really appreciate it!!! I am back on track...and I am DETERMINED!! Sorry I had to yell so that I can engrave it into my brain...LOL.

I worked last night...and can I tell ya...I walked up and down the stairs ten million times...and up and down the halls countless times!!! My calves are really sore feels good.

Like I said an OP day yesterday...nothing like motivation!!! :~P I worked again I AM going to have another OP day (or night depending on how you look at it).

I am getting really excited about our Disney World trip...only 16 days away!!!!
I hope everyone is having a wonderful is HOT here...only 91 degrees!!

Friday, May 30, 2008


I am challenging myself to a great weekend...which includes...staying op, drinking plenty H2O, finishing week 2 of Couch to 5K (which should have been completed like a month ago...I just keep doing one or two of the workouts...then I have to start that week over), work in the flower beds, playing outside with the kids...the only thing is...TOM is creeping up anyday now...and this will definately be a challenge!!!I weighed this am...which really isn't fair since I worked last night...but I weighed 166.5...arrrrggg. I have to stay positive...and reassure myself that I have had some slip ups this week and TOM is around the corner...but that this is a journey and I just need to keep plugging along.Oh and my feet are sooooo swollen. I hate that when I am on my feet for the most part of 13 hrs my feet will swell. Sometimes it happens and sometimes it doesn't...I'm sure it happens more around my monthly feels like my feet are gonna POP right now!!! And no I don't have cankles...haha.I getting ready to take a nap for a couple of hours since I have been up since ummmm one something yesterday afternoon!! :~PI hope everyone has a wonderful Friday and a GREAT weekend!!

Here's to me and my iPod hitting the pavement...not literally!! :~P

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Good Day, Yummy Dinner, and a Wonderful Walk...

Okay...I feel like I really accomplished a lot today!! I went to the fruit/veggie stand...and spent $ goodness...atleast I know that it is good stuff going in my body!! Then I took my two growing boys grocery shopping at Wally-World...ummm I won't even go there with how much I spent...LOL! I did get some lean cuts of meat and I am really happy I have a stocked fridge and freezer. I used Roni's freezer method for my lean ground beef...I love packaging it that way.
I cleaned out the freezer...a bag of sugar had broken in the freezer and needless to say disaster!!! So, I finally took care of that and organized while I was at it!!
My son asked if he could clean the house today for $30 and I said oh yes you can (after I said cleaning all the bathrooms, dusting, vacuuming, mopping, etc....he agreed) he did that!!! YIPPPPPEEEE!!
I cooked dinner...and it was soooo good. My youngest son wanted stuffed bell that's one of the things we bought at the fruit/veggie stand...I have a picture but it was after I had taken a bite... the pic doesn't look the best. I just had to show you what I cooked....yum!!

Then after dinner the hubby and I took a nice walk...wasn't Couch to 5k...but it was nice. I had to keep telling hubby to speed it up...LOL!! here is my walk...

The only thing lacking today is the water intake...which I am working on and hopefully will meet my goal!!
Oh yeah...and I had to buy some Breyers ff ice cream (chocolate)...shame on me!! I hope I can eat just the serving size of 1/2 cup...haha!!
Hope everyone else had an awesome day!! :~P

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Twix Commercial

This is husband would say "this is a set up"....I love this I revert back to it thinking that is sooooo me....

Friday, May 23, 2008

Working Weekend makes for a funky Friday....

Hey to all...hope you have a fun, safe, and healthy Memorial Day weekend. I will be working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights...yuckola! It always puts me in a funky mood on Friday knowing that everybody else is ending their week and I am just starting my week!!

Today has been a good day so far for eating...I say so far because I had to take a nap so when I'm sleeping I'm not screwing up!! :) I had my favorite toasted wrap and diet coke when I woke was yummy!!I won't be posting much this weekend because I will be working and sleeping...:). I am gonna go to the in-laws on Sunday evening before work...they are having a barbeque. That is the only thing I have planned this weekend except for working. Pretty boring I know!

Hopefully by the end of the weekend...because of the time constraints and walking so much at work....I hope to be down on the scale!! I was at 167 this morning when I weighed...up 2 from the other day. I keep telling myself...eating unhealthy + not exercising as much as I should = higher numbers on the freakin scale!!! One day it will sink in and I will follow. Actually, I have done good today and I have some Lean Cuisines and Smart Ones meals to bring to excuses to eat that cafeteria food!!!

Again...everyone have a great weekend!! :~)

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Do I have Sucker stamped across my forehead...

Well good day yesterday...and I am kicking myself right now for today already!! Sooo if you don't know it...I'm a mexican food lover!! Today was the kid's last day of school...we met the husband at everybody's favorite mexican rest. Well I got my taco al carbon...ate a few bites of the rice and none of the beans and only 1 1/2 of the al carbon...not terrible but...ordering the gets to me and someone at the table said dr. not even thinking...I go along...WHAT WAS I THINKING??? I am a sucker for full blown coke or dr. pepper. I have been doing so good with drinking diet coke (I know it's bad for you but so is living in cancer alley...haha)...and then I have a gallon of dr. pepper...not really but still. Okay my lunch I figured up to be points...12 points (the only thing I have eaten today)...not bad right...dr. pepper 6 points...that is TERRIBLE!! Then my wheels start spinning...already 18 points down the drain...then 300 empty calories on top of that...I could have eaten a bunch more for less!!! :(I stopped at the grocery after that meal and bought for dinner it's chicken, brown rice, and peas. I am to vow not to drink full blown soda...and what about my short term goal...okay I am going to stay on track...this is it. But like I stated in a post the other day...I did it, I own it, and I have to move on.I'm going to get on the treadmill...wonder how long it will take to burn those 300 hundred calories of dr pepper...stop it...stop it...

P.S. I finally got the husband to go on a walk after dinner last was so nice walking & talking and being able to just chill!! :~P

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

computer crash, end of school year, scarfing food, and which one to blog...

Hey everybody!! :~P I am still here. My title says it computer crashed so I had to reinstall it took a couple of days for that...because I procrastinated all weekend. But, I am happy to say my computer is up and running.

It is the end of the school year for the kids and can I tell you they are or should I say we are BUSY!! This is the last week and they are done after Thursday! I have to tell ya...they were saying that they don't have to go to school Thursday because it doesn't count as an absence anyway...and why would they make us go to school until 1030am...all we do is watch movies. So, the great MOM I am...I told them I contacted your teachers and Thursday is all they are thinkin yeah we don't have to go to school! I told them (they are almost 12 & 14 mind you) I talked to your teachers and ya'll are all set to stay the full school day until 230pm and help put away everything for the summer and help clean classrooms...they looked at me in horror!!! HAHA...then I told them I was just joking. They were VERY relieved to know that it was a joke. :~P

Ok...scarfing food...this one is hard to type so I have to give you the WHOLE story sorry. I worked last night...let me rewind and give you a day in the life of me working minus the end (I usually don't scarf)...I got out of bed from my nap at about 3pm...cooked dinner which is everybody's favorite *(see below bottom post)...ate a few nibbles here and there...had a few reduced fat Cheese Its...was running behind schedule...took a shower got ready and left the house at 5:35pm because I had to go by the mall for the ever so important free gift from Lancome...made it to work for clock-in at 6:38pm...WAS NOT hungry...worked and worked until 10pm and then my stomach was just a talkin to I went to Subway...was very good 6" turkey on wheat...baked lays...and a diet coke! Wellllllll when it came time for "lunch" at 1 am (when I normally eat when I work...not at 10pm)...I was NOT hungry. Okay...I got home at about 815am this morning...I was starving...I mean I was starving...I know you know what I am talking about that gnawing at the inside of your stomach...and I felt like I was going to die...yeah right...but that is what my little sleepy...stressed...hungry brain was telling me. I went through the kitchen like the tasmanian devil...and in no time I ate a Lean Cuisine chicken club pannini...a pack of peanut butter crackers...a glass of cran-grape juice (oh the calories and sugar before bed)...and oh a handful of reduced fat cheese its...oh then it's off to bed I go...because it's my night time. Can I tell you how embarrassed I felt for myself? I can't tell you how long it has been where I have just lost all self control and went through the kitchen like an uncontrollable 16 pound **chihuahua on prednisone...haha.'s's over with...I MUST move on and not let it replay in my brain like I do for things that happened at work when I am trying so hard to go to sleep!! :)

Ok...which one to blog...I did set up an account on Blog to Lose...I am debating whether to post on this one...that one...or both??? I like it...but I don't necessarily like the fact that people see your every post...change...addition...maybe I just don't adjust to change very well. I do love the concept and I do love the options it gives you...that was my only beef with it...but I could get over that minor issue quickly!! :) I do however consider this my first blog...I am so torn. I know I am being silly but it is kind of like a boyfriend...HEEELLLPPP!! I don't know...I will think about it some more. What do ya'll think...??

As far as the exercise front...I am going to get on the treadmill once I finish this post. I have been neglecting it and I feel soooo much better when I exercise!! :~P

The scale...the scale is still fluctuating between 164.5-167...what can I say...the episode this morning will not tip the scale in the direction I want it to. Note to self: Scarfing food will only get you higher numbers on the scale...oh and give you heartburn!! :)

Sorry for such a long post and rant...I just had so much to say...and now I feel like it is all off my chest!!!

*baked chicken breasts with tom. sauce...a little salt, pepper, garlic, and onions...with a little bit of 2% fancy shredded mozzarella cheese...yummy!
**My chihuahua has Pemphigus (yes, for he is not a is a skin or mucous membrane disorder that causes ulcerations...when not treated...not so wonderful) and is on prednisone and has been for the last 7-8 months and he has gained 7.5 pounds...and he is fierce when he is hungry. LOL

Monday, May 12, 2008

I've been missing...and I have lost...

HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOO EVERYBODY....I AM STILL ALIVE!!! :) I'm not yelling just trying to get your attention....haha. Well I have been really staying close to plan...I say close because I have a few bumps that have gotten in my way. I am happy to say I am down to 165!!!! YAAAAHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!

We are going to Disney World in June and I really, really, really want to be in the 150's by then...and not just 159 because I already know how those vacations go!!! Also, I really hope that I can find descent food on the dining plan and at the resteraunts we chose!!! ;~P I am really excited about the trip...not excited about the HEAT and LOOOONNNGGG LINES though!! It's the hubby's first time going and the kids have only been to MK it's exciting.

On the couch to 5k program...well I am still on WEEK 2!! I made two of the workouts two weeks in a row...but not three...damn it! I have had a tooth that has been killing me and it pretty much has ruled my life...until I have my appointment at the dentist. Can I just say when it hurts and I workout the blood gets's just painful talking about it!! So anyway, I am going to try again this week. I am not beating myself up about it just because I know I am more active now and I am moving around more...but I really, really want to complete the program and I will!!

Happy late Mother's Day to all of you out there!! What did you get?? I got some really cool things...first of all I got a clean house...hello best present EVER...especially since I worked three nights in a row...then I got some cute pink wrist weights...and a yoga kit...can't wait to try it out!!! Also I got turn down husband is so cute. In the morning after a night of work (not all the time) he straightens the bed up and turns it down for me with my pajamas folded on the bed!! Awe he's so sweet! :)

Well, I hope everyone is on plan and doing great. ;~P

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

I got one minute to save the world...

That is what I was singing in my head when my legs felt like a linkin log tower about to collapse...of course I was listening to 4 minutes by Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake...

Day one...WEEK TWO...Another one bites the dust....and I am fee-el-ing it!! :) I really am enjoying doing this program because I feel like structure is what I need. I know I could probably run longer times...but I know I would quit because it's not something structured...that is why Couch to 5k is for me!! ;~P

I do have to say I feel really retarded when it comes to figuring out when I need to walk and when I need to run...I start out saying ok at 5 min run ok at 6:30 walk...then I am like when do I stop running again...yeah I I got the pencil out and marked it on a sheet. Although, I will say it made time go by pretty fast pondering when I was supposed to stop!! Anybody else have that prob or am I the only cool one with that problem??

Okay...I need to go do laundry before the hubby gets home so he thinks I have been a wonderful wife on my day off...hahaha!!!

Friday, April 25, 2008

A Rant...

Just a quick update....I finished my 1st week of Couch to 5K...WOOOOHOOOO!!! :) I am just loving the energy. I don't love the hip pain...or the cracked heel I have (I remember now why I quit running and gained all this weight...haha). You know I started thinking yeah 170 pounds bouncing up and down no wonder my heel cracked...haha! Hey NO PAIN NO GAIN??? I am okay with the little demons that are trying to get me to stop...they are messing with a bad ass mamma right now. All joking aside, I feel great!!!

Today, I have already accomplished a lot...3 loads of laundry...cleaned the kids bathroom (yuck 2 boys) vacuumed the house...went to the tanning bed (yeah I know it's not good for ya but neither is living in cancer alley)...cleaned the kitchen...and now I am off to bed. I have to work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday!! :)

Oh, one last husband said to me this morning...gawd you are just all into everything huh?? I said yup...I want to be healthy, happy, and full of energy!! ;~P He is happy for me...he has no choice...we've been married 14 years...goodness that makes me feel old!!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Me, Myself, and I

Okay...I am feeling so much better...I mean I have energy (I'm still sluggish to get out the freakin bed in the morning...I am a night owl ya know)...I am sore and lovin it...I did day two of week one Couch to 5K yesterday morning and I love it. I have been staying on plan...but boy am I hungry all the time!! ;~P I have been running around cleaning house...moving more...we are gonna take a family (including the 2 doggies) walk after dinner...and I am soooo motivated!! Yeah I was about to end that sentence with right now but....

I bought a whole bunch of fresh fruit...the kids love the canned fruit and it has so much freakin sugar in it. I made a wonderful fruit salad with fresh pineapple, strawberries, bananas, grapes, apples, was delich...and the hubby and kids loved it!! :) I should have taken a picture of it because it was so pretty's all about presentation for me!!

I work all this weekend...the hubby is taking the kids to the beach...yeah, I am screaming inside...I will have the house ALL to myself...I am super excited and jealous at the same time....I love the beach!! ;~P No, I am not being selfish...this will be the FIRST time in over two years I will be alone in the house...and all it means is that I won't get woken up during the day while trying to sleep (work weekend) it works out for all!! :)

Anyway, I need to finish washing clothes for their trip tomorrow...but I just had to take a minute out and say how pumped I am. Oh yeah, I have been weighing everyday and the scale is staying the same at 171...that sucks...but I keep telling myself that I am not only eating healthier but I am also don't pay attention to that damn thing!!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Motivated Monday...nah its Tuesday...

OMG I feel good...I really worked out and I feel good...well as good as one can get on 2 hours sleep in the last 30 hours. You know I really love the blogosphere because you can really get motivated and I DO read them all the time and have gotten really motivated by a lot of blogs...and feel like I have a butt load of blog friends :). BUT I really have to give a shout out to my MOTIVATORS today... Angie All The Way and Girl On A Mission.....thank you, thank you, thank you for the get off your ass you have two legs and a pulse motivation today...I needed it and I did it!! I even broke out the Nike+ I got for Easter...yes I said Easter and I used it and it was so freakin cool!!!! ;~P Thanks to the hubby for the great gift in my basket.

Okay I feel like a child right now because I don't want to go to sleep afraid I will lose the motivation!!!! I have been eating good things and trying to drink my water...trying operative word but I have done much better on the H2O front!

Well I am sure I will be sore a good way...speaking about motivation from reading blogs...everybody's running and I need to catch I did the Couch to 5k but I didn't read it all the way before I got on the treadmill so I went over....oh well up for me.

I feel like this post is all over the place but it's the best I could do...I am off to bed before my face actually lands on the keyboard...:~P

Sunday, April 20, 2008

A Sunny Sunday...

It is a beautiful day....and we spent atleast four hours outside washing the vehicles and enjoying the wonderful weather!!

I am wrapping my head around this whole weight loss thing...haha...I am on track. I don't know why but I have been sooooo sleepy all the time...I am not sleeping well...and I feel like I am in a constant just want to feel good!! I have started taking the stairs at work and boy do my legs feel it...I have been doing it for the last 3 weeks or so and we are on three different floors...sooooo I am definately using my legs ALOT!! ;~P

Can I just Biggest Loser...I know a little late but thank God for DVR's!! She looks awesome...I wonder how much she ate during those 6 weeks at home before finale?? I hope she keeps it off...she lost so fast. She does look great though!!

FYI I am getting ready to talk about something not so pleasant...
Fiber One bars...oh how I loved (notice past tense) those little bars that taste so yummy!!! night at work I started feeling really my stomach could just pop...really gasssssyyy on the inside...did not feel like I needed to use the bathroom though...ok it got worse...the cramping and feeling like crap. That is when I was talking to a coworker/friend...and she started talking about how her daughter had brought up the same thing and then she put two and two happend to her. The next night another coworker was talking about how bad her stomach felt and how she was soooo bloated...yeah I asked and she had TWO of the fiber one bars....well after talking to about 6 people...and all 6 people had the same problem...yeah I just haven't been able to bring myself to eat one of those delicous buggers!! :)

Well I am off to do some cleaning....hope everyone has enjoyed their weekend like I did!!

Friday, April 11, 2008

Whoppin Workin Weekend...

Sorry for being "missing in action"...still trying to get everyone well around here. I went to lots of MD appointments with the husband...he feels better so *keeping fingers crossed* hopefully he's on road to recovery. :)

I am still not 100% commited to my weight loss journey since getting back from vacation...let me rephrase that...I haven't been until this morning when I woke up and said enough is enough I need to whip myself back into reality. I am not getting my fruits and veggies in...I am not getting my water in!!! I know, I know I got up went into the kitchen made a healthy breakfast...but no not before having a glass of water. I felt like singing "I'm a big girl now!"

I just read ...and I know this is no new revolution...on a website that it takes about 12 minutes for a thin person's brain to register when they are full verses about 20 minutes for an obese person...hmmm...I am always shoveling food in so that I can move on to the next thing...I am slowing down now that's for sure.

Well I get to work all body feels so funky when I work three nights in a the third night I feel like I am so not in my body. I have been taking melatonin in the morning (afer working one night shift) so that I can sleep...remember since I was only sleeping for about 4 hours between shifts. I have to say it is working better!! :)

I hope everyone has a healthy and wonderful weekend...just keep me in the back of your mind as I will be sleeping while you are enjoying the sunshine and when you are climbing in that wonderful bed of yours...I will be running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to get things done at work...hahahaha. ;~p

Saturday, April 5, 2008

In the background...

That is me...I am here reading everybody's blogs but not taking care of my own. I have been trying to take care of the family...I have a child that they were treating for strep not once but twice...until I mentioned the fact that it could be Mono since the antibiotics weren't taking care of his poor infected throat...well the test came back positive so he has been out of school ALL week. The husband has a respiratory infection...on steroids, antibiotics, breathing treatments....not to mention he also has the grouchies!! ;) Everyone seems to be a little better!! :)

As for me, I am doing OK on the WW ok I mean yeah there has been some veering off track...I took the promotion at work...which did I mention I am an emotional eater??? Well I haven't done terrible, but not staying on track as much as I had been. BUT I have noticed when I veer off track....its not like it use to be....:). I have been eating a lot of fruits and veggies!!! I have not been getting my H2O in at work like I would like too...I am always running around. At home I have been doing an excellent job drinking fact that is all I have been drinking at home....after my caffeine!!

As far as exercising...I am touch and go...I did get the Nike + ipod...I haven't used it yet so I am going to use it this weekend. I am excited that I will have something to keep track...I am a gadget lover!! I do take the stairs at work and we are on the 3rd, 4th, and 5th floors so I am definately getting in some serious stair time!!

This weekend...I want to get the house cleaned...DO ALL the laundry...get in shop...we were supposed to go to the LSU spring game...but since everyone is not feeling well and we had terrible weather last night...I don't think we will be going.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!! :)

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Stayin' Alive....

I'm just listening to Stayin' Alive and talking to the husband about our weight loss goals...a vacation we are planning...and I was offered a promotion at work. You know I got down on myself and then I started thinking about the book The Secret...and I tell ya I am getting my world back on track...and it doesn't hurt that I haven't worked since last Thursday night. To all my fellow blogger's that gave me a pep talk thanks a is so great to have peeps out there that can get you through a tough time!! :)

I ate crappy today...but I feel better. I did go to the grocery store today and bought all kind of fruit, veggies, lean meats...and I actually came home cleaned and cut up the fruits & veggies. Yummy...Louisiana strawberries are my favorite!! :) Also, I did follow Roni's freezer tricks which is freezer looks great now. :) Thanks Roni.

So anyway, I work this weekend...ALL WEEKEND...and I have all the wonderful food I need to eat right and get totally on track!!! :) I hope you all have a wonderful and healthy weekend. Burn baby burn...oops just listening to a little Disco Inferno...:)

I will be reading this weekend but probably not posting since I will be working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night!! ;)

Monday, March 24, 2008

Where am I???

Well I am in a slump...not doing so great. I just feel like I am being really down on myself lately!! I attribute it to several things:
1. Not getting back in the groove since vacation.
2. Work...what can I say.
3. The husband's work issues...
4. All the mommy are always fighting...never help around the house...oh did I mention the fighting...I know just two boys being 23 months apart!!!
Well my actual feeling is like when its my TOM...and no that came and past on the 13th! I really feel like going in my room locking the door and crying.

I know I just need to dig myself out of this hole....for one it is just going to make me gain more the way I am up 3 1/2 pounds...and it doesn't make me feel good about myself!! So, damn it...I am going to change my attitude...I feel like Thomas the Tank...I think I can I think I can!! :) Okay, I need to read some blogs...go read a magazine...and maybe watch a movie...things for myself! I will be back and let you know how I feel tomorrow...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Need a vacation after vacation...

Well of course I am back from my wonderful vacation in Mexico. I do have to say I am GLAD to be back though. I just felt like the choices in Mexico all screamed at me NOOOOOOO. I did eat a lot of cantaloupe and yogurt. I did say no to A LOT of food but it just wasn't my structured out of site out of mind way of living...if you know what I mean. I am talking about food from early morning to late evening everywhere...and if it wasn't food it was drinking time. I didn't let it ruin my vacation but I also had that little voice in the back of my head saying ummm no that is enough.

The down side is I gained 5 pounds on my wonderful vacation the up side is I got a little Montezuma's Revenge and have lost a few pounds and now back to 168.5. I am in no way wishing that upon anyone but hey I had to be positive about the situation since I got it the morning we were heading back on our 6 hour journey home!! :)

I am getting back into the swing of things...not 100% but I really have the motivation. I have to admit I watched Biggest Loser tonight and that motivated me and made me cry! I was really upset with Brittany being the one sent home...she was my favorite.

Well I am off to the next two nights and worked last night!!!

P.S. My goal is to start working out regularly atleast 3 times a week. ;)

P.S.S. You know the two books I got for the vacation well have only gotten to one of them and that is Skinny Bitch...I love's on cd and she really grabs my attention. If you don't like a few "bad words" every now and then it's not the book for you.

Really I am off to bed. I feel like I am in auto mode just typing and not making any sense. Have a wonderful week.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008


I know I have been MIA for a couple of days...and I have been eating terribly. I have had to again tonight and tomorrow night...and trying to get everything done for this wonderful trip on Saturday has been a lot of work....getting hair done, buying last minute items, making sure the kids and my mom (who is staying with the kids) has everything they need...just work...and I had to have it done because I work the next two nights. Ok enough about that...

On to me and the confessions...I have been eating awful...carbs (which, in excess do so much damage to me in)...french cream...made enchiladas with real sour cream and full fat cheese...gross......just not right and guess what the scale shows...168 this morning. :( I am sabatoging my mini goal of wanting to lose 5 pounds before the trip. I had a little voice inside my head tell me this don't want to get in to this habit before going on vacation and make bad choices all week long...that is soooo right...because I don't know about you but I can put on weight FAST!! Also, since eating "bad" it has made me very hungry all the time...

So now I vow to eat on plan from now till the trip and try to do my best during the week of my trip. Atleast I know how to make much healthier choices and know what to stay away from. Before starting this journey, I really didn't know what was a better choice out of two options (if that makes sense).

I did go get my hair done this am which makes me feel better about myself...I am not going to beat myself up over this...although it does disgust me...I am going to GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON!! :)

Monday, March 3, 2008

Motivating Monday!!

Ok first things first...ever had a moment when you say "I'm never drinking again"? Well I am having one of those moments...I had some wine last night...and lets just say I am hurrrtttaann! :) I hardly ever drink...had a great day...did some house work...washed the vehicles with the hubby...decided we would have a drink or two or three sitting on the patio...well did I tell you I am NEVER drinking wine again...ok off my soap box.

I am still losing...yay...The scale showed 166 this am!! :) I am excited. I hadn't seen my parents in a while and when they saw me they couldn't believe it. That makes me feel great!! More coworkers are noticing's hard to tell what someone looks like in scrubs. I am just so motivated.

I bought some frozen meals this weekend incase I don't have time to fix something for lunch...I work three nights this week...and theeeennnn....yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooo it's off to Mexico on Saturday morning!! :)

I hope you have a happy Monday...I am off to nap for work tonight (ok maybe for the hangover too)!! ;~p

Friday, February 29, 2008

Working Weekend...

I feel great this morning...I got up and ate a bowl of ff yogurt with cherry almond granola in it...lots of fiber and protein....and YES I did drink 2 glasses of water!! :) I didnt have any caffeine because I work I need to sleep at some point today!

Wednesday I had a first...I did a bad thing...I didn't eat near all my points...I think I had 17 points but the down fall was that I ate a late I wasn't hungry!!! Well yesterday I made up for it...I ate over my points. The scale is still the same...which is a good long as it's not up...I'm good!! :) I have three more pounds until I reach that personal goal for next Saturday!! :)

I bought two new books to bring with me to Mexico...we will see if I get to read them. I bought one on cd so I could listen to it on my ipod on the trip over and back! I bought Skinny Bitch and A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose...I am really excited...I will let you know what I think of both!!

I am going to treat my body right this weekend...I am going to make healthy choices (I work this weekend so "my day" changes)...I WILL DRINK MY WATER AT WORK...sorry had to yell that because I work 12 hr shifts and I don't drink enough water or any liquid for that matter!!

Anyway...don't know if I will be posting this have a wonderful and healthy weekend. :)

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My Day....

Well today I made up for working Monday night and not sleeping during the day yesterday...I feel really good today...and the scale said I was down even with the slip ups. That is motivation to stay on the right path....

I have had my water cup with me today....I have really been drinking my water!! I am determined to reach that goal by Saturday (losing 5 pounds).

I went to Target favorite store...and ran across the new hostess 100 calorie pack Banana Streusel Muffin...oh my goodness they are awesome...I love bananas though...and they are only 1 point...they have 4 grams of fiber too!!! I love them!!!

For dinner tonight I am grilling some chicken...I hope I don't singe my hair...I am dangerous in the kitchen much less around the gas grill.

I am gonna try on all my new stuff for the trip and bag up everything I don't want and return it....I am so bad about that...I am GOING to send everything back tomorrow...that is my goal.

Well off I go to try on all the stuff I bought for the trip so I can start packing...unpacking...adding to and all that crazy ocd stuff I do!! :)

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Tantalizing Tuesday...

Well I worked last night...slept for about 20-30 minutes body feels funky!! I had (had is the key word) the right mind set...but my mind went and I just didn't care today....I didn't go overboard...maybe I did...I don't know...but I do know that I did indulge in the thin mint cookies my husband brought home!!! Those darn thin mints...6 points!! I used 33.5 points today! And I didn't drink the water I needed too.

It's okay I did good on Monday...I am going to turn it around and have a great day tomorrow! I really wanted to drop 5 more pounds before our trip...I know I am not supposed to focus on the scale but that was just the number I really wanted to hit!! I guess that can be my goal...I don't work until the it should be doable...cause the weekend is my downfall...and I work so that is a good thing!! :) SO...that is my challenge to myself can I lose 5 pounds before next Saturday??? Yes, I can....I will...I will!! Please motivate me or give me a kick in the ass if I screw up!

Okay it starts now...I am going to the kitchen...ok I know what you're thinking...damn girl I am going to get a glass of H2O!!! :)

Monday, February 25, 2008

Rambling Monday....

Monday is the start of a new week...I didn't do well over the weekend and the scale shows...I gained a pound! Well...the husband and I went to the grocery store last night and stocked up on some good food for the week...and I got some stuff to pack lunch for work...I am excited!! You know why...well for one 12 days until vacation and 2 three months ago after having a bad day or two days...I would have just taken off with it and eaten everything in sight!!! Now I feel bad (literally) when I eat bad...I think about it...and I want to change it immediately!! I woke up this morning drinking water...and planning my day....because that is the only way I can know that I will be on plan!! :)

The talk yesterday at the lunch table with the husband and the other couple going to Mexico was....I just can't do it (lose weight)...I have tried and it just doesn't work...I just zipped my lips because it's like an one wants to hear from the girl losing weight!! ;) I did think about saying something but everybody at that table knows that I am losing weight...and everybody at that table knows they too can lose weight!!

I am just excited about the week....I hope you are too!!!! ;)

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Shopping Sunday...

Well...the husband and I along with another couple (the couple we are going to mexico with) are going to eat lunch and go shopping. I went shopping yesterday with the wife of the couple and I have to say swim suits are not looking sexy!!! The clothes I tried on were smaller and for that I was really excited!!! :)

The problem I have is that when I have problems or alot on my mind...I want to eat...yes I ate yesterday...not terrible...well lunch yes was terrible...mexican food again...dinner not sooo bad. I only have 2 weeks left until vacation...hello...the scale still says 169 as of this obviously I am doing something right!!

When we get home the husband is going to get the suitcases out and yes I am going to start packing!!! As I read on another reminded of me...I will probably pack and unpack and pack again. The main reason I have not gotten the suitcases out is because I add more and more to them to where the husband has one bag and I have 3!!! Well I am gonna try not to do that this time....last year when we went to Cabo...yes I did do that!

Well, I am off to shop....maybe I will post an update tonight on how I did eating out again...:)

Friday, February 22, 2008

A little stumble....

Ok....I have been doing so well on plan....that is until this morning. I worked two nights in a row...a friend asked "you wanna go to IHOP?" I said "sure!!" Well needless to say I went to IHOP and no I didn't get the egg beaters omelette...or anything remotely healthy. I opted for the eggs, bacon, and pancakes...with the butter and hot maple syrup...oh yeah I did drink a diet coke...yoohoo. I know I can't beat myself up about this...and I haven't gone to sleep yet so I am up almost 24 hours now and running on fumes...but I felt like I needed to come home and read some blogs to get motivated!!! I don't want to let this be the start to a bad weekend!!! Hopefully I will get remotivated and let this just be a little stumble not a weekend of falling flat on my face! :)

Off to take a nap before the kids get home...then I plan to get up and get motivated again!!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Staying on Plan...

I am starting to think I need to journal my food online...maybe that will motivate me to make better choices. I am staying on plan and losing weight....but still not making great choices. I do journal my food on WW online as I am a member of that I don't know.

I have lost another 2 pounds and TOM is visiting!!! So, losing is really good for me! :) It is keeping me really motivated...I have been craving mexican food really bad but that is the only thing I am craving and have been since Monday!!! I just figured that it is not worth it...I am going to mexico in 2 1/2 weeks so I will my fill in Puerto Vallarta!! You would think I am spanish eating mexican food all the time....going to Mexico every year. I always joke with my husband that I should have married a spanish man!! :) Just a joke though! My husband is the best!!

Speaking of Mexico...I need to research what I can eat their...I mean I know the salsa, fruit, chicken fajita meat....but they like to make a lot of casseroles. I already told myself I am not going to beat myself up over making bad choices (I'm going to try and limit them) of course I am staying I will have a cocktail or two or three...hehe. The scale will ultimately tell how well or how bad I have done.

I have not gotten on the treadmill today...woke up with a headache and I have to work I am trying to get rid of the headache. Of course, what do I turn to?? Diet Coke...and advil. Actually that is all I have put in my mouth today since I just woke up...

Wow, I sure did ramble on...

Monday, February 18, 2008

Monday, Monday, Monday....

Well...we ended up going to Carrabas for dinner on Saturday night...YES I blew it...I'm over and moving on...except that I have paid for it stomach has been so messed up...lesson learned.

I am done with my yucky messed up schedule and back to my regular schedule...this week I just have Wednesday and Thursday left to work!! :)

I plan on getting back on the treadmill tomorrow...I am feeling 90% back to myself (since having the flu and RAD).

We now have 19 days till we go to MEXICO....I can't wait. I am really trying to talk myself into doing what everyone else wants to line...I am so scared of heights!! YIKES!!! We are going to have a great time.

I have been on plan for the most part since that bad meal Saturday night...haven't made great choices but have stayed within points...I need to lessen my carb intake...I am a true carbohydrate addict...yes I am admitting it...I need more veggies, fruits, and WATER!!! :)

Ok I am going to fix a glass of water!!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

The weekend...

I am doing great on plan. I am soooo tired. I worked Tuesday night, Thursday night, Friday night and I work tomorrow night....this is when my body says I want carbs. I hate feeling like this because it takes extra effort to say no no no when you are tired and have had little sleep.

The husband and I are going with another couple (the couple we are going to Puerto Vallarta with) to eat at Olive Garden tonight so I guess I need to research on the net what I can eat before just going their and making a mindless decision to get some creamy pasta dish...

I am doing much better planning and bringing my lunch and snacks to is working much better than trying to find something in the cafeteria.

Well I need to go get ready for tonight!! :)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Valentine's Day....

Happy Valentine's Day to all...I am just starting my day since I work tonight...but I have already been offered candy 3 times by the kids and I have said no thank you to all. I am on a roll right now feeling better...eating right...feeling better about myself and my choices. It's amazing when you have a few good days how much easier it is to decide what you want to put in your mouth...:). The husband is not doing so good...he said he is giving up...but I am not going to let that hinder my progress.

Wellllllll offfff to work I go....hope I can stay awake..... ;~p

Tuesday, February 12, 2008


That is what my scale read this am!! I had to wipe my eyes to make sure I was seeing the number my first thought was ohhh you could really screw this number up or you can take it and I am glad to say so far soooo good. I do work tonight so I am going to pack my lunch so I don't have to eat the junk in the cafeteria.

I really am pumped up about this...Mexico in 4 1/2 weeks...I can do this. The only down side which i don't want to even think about yet is that we are going all-inclusive...yeah...i know i know i know.

Well I am off to fix dinner for the rest of the family.... :)

Monday, February 11, 2008

Getting Back On Track...

Okay I am feeling better but not great....but I am trying to get my mindset back on track. I go back to work tomorrow night so I am trying to think of things I can fix and pack for snacks and lunches because I work....Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Sunday...yuck yuck and of course I work all night shifts.

I am making a meatloaf tonight with extra lean ground beef and I really wanted to feel better so I could go to the market and get some zucchini and squash...i love tricking the family by steaming the veggies and putting in the food processor and adding to meat tastes great too!! :)

I am hoping to get back to exercising by Saturday...I really don't want to push it because of the wheezing...but that is what I am hoping for and using "The Secret" to make it happen!!! :)

Well, I am off to do some things around here.

I forgot...I am gonna add pics soon...

Saturday, February 9, 2008


Well still sick...went to Urgent Care twice this week. They told me I had Bronchitis on Wednesday...had flu shot in October...went back this am because I felt like I was suffocating. Long story short...I got a breathing felt wonderful. Also, testing me for the flu and voila I have the flu!!! :( This MD told me flu shot seems to last 3 months...that would be about right....ok off my soap box.

I really haven't been following points or anything because I have just been in bed and not eating much...well after a breathing treatment...and feeling a little better....what did I do...ate Popeyes. Yes I did! That is why I am posting this so maybe I will be better the rest of the day! :)

Well I am off to get back in bed. I hope to be back on track by that I mean...eating normal, counting points, exercising, and all that good stuff!

Thursday, February 7, 2008


I felt like I was in such a groove...then I got sick. I just want to get well soon so I don't lose the motivation that has been with me for the last couple of weeks.

I am headed for Mexico in 4 weeks and want to be able to feel a little bit better about myself. :)

Well I am headed back to bed....trying to feel better so that I can go to work to only have enough PTO to go on vacation!! :(

Tuesday, February 5, 2008


I know it's been a while for a post...I have been focusing. I am down 9!! :) I am doing better with really watching what I put in my mouth...just not all the time. I have to learn food is not the enemy but rather a friend...for goodness sake it gives you the fuel to run on. I mean if I really think about it....I don't just go anywhere to fill my car up with gas...I look for somewhere with decent gas. Hmmm put that way makes me think more...

On to other news...I have been doing cardio the last two weeks. I haven't really noticed a change in my stamina but I feel better doing it.

I really don't feel well, as I have a sore throat. I am going to sign off.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

For Real

Ok ok ok...its time. Its a new year and a new way of thinking. I really have been psyching myself up for the change. I am excited and ready for this. I am looking forward to new and exciting adventures with less weight.